Shit got real last night.
I have been trying to get my music career together this year- doing more touring and original shows- but still not enough (any) of my stuff.
I’ve been trying to put my own group together for about 9 months now mostly to no avail. Everyone’s “too busy” with their own thing. Which either sets me back months or completely. I’ve been trying to figure something out.
I am also a low-key foster advocate and part time protector of vulnerable children. It’s something I kind of fell into and it just feels like a duty and obligation for all humans that I do. I have been surprised to learn that not all humans look at these things with the same passion and concern that I do.
In my life I feel an obligation to do right by others the best that I can. Sometimes I succeed- sometimes I fall short. I feel like I must now overcome my career hurdles to become financially independent while being artistically and socially progressive and relevant.
My greatest hurdle is not in acquiring new and better skills to become more successful, working harder or reinventing the wheel- it is this:
HAVING THE CONFIDENCE TO PURSUE MY GOALS THAT OFTEN RISE ABOVE AND BEYOND WHAT AVERAGE PEOPLE ENVISION FOR THEMSELVES DESPITE THE DIFFICULTY IN DOING SO.
I have to set a course to achieve my goals and proceed to set sail on a lonely open sea in hopes that my “new world” is in the direction that I’m going.
In my musical endeavors I always seek resonance- to hear something in my music that moves me. I need to find that thing and pursue it until I succeed or until it no longer matters to me.
In doing this I have great sacrifices that I need to make for my family- including protecting yet another innocent young child. I must step up and do things that I’ve never done before and achieve goals that I’ve never reached before.
I am changing my approach to life today in that I will boldly- but thoughtfully- step up the quality and quantity of my actions towards making a better life for myself and my family. If I choose to do that as a musical artist then I don’t have the option to be timid or second guess myself. As my dad used to like to say- “Shit or get off the pot”.
And I will step up and start doing things that most others won’t to make my world- and others’- a better place.
Time to get started…